Changes

Feeling distant. Disconnected. And honestly just lost.

If you’ve at least entered the post-high school phase of your life, I’m pretty sure you’ve felt this way before. I know I have. For a lot of people, this is the big shift from being a child that is taken care of to being an adult that has to take care of. And it is undoubtedly very very stressful. To be honest, any transition phase is. So recently, a lot of things have been happening in my life. Changes. Big ones. I felt like I was suffocating. Like I couldn’t keep up with the pace of life. With all this change happening all around me, I felt like I was losing myself. And the people around me too. I wanted to just scream at life “Stop this!! Pause time for a while! I need a minute to catch my breath and absorb all this alterations and transformations happening in my life!”. Well technically, I already have, several times in my mind. But that’s just not how it works. Life ain’t gonna listen and wait for you. As I am writing this entry, I am coming to the realization that as human beings, we don’t really have the liberty of choosing the ‘whats’ and the ‘whens’. Time passes by horizontally for us. And as sad as this may be, changes are inevitable in life. It would be unnatural if everything were to be static. For a person that has always been secretly so resistant to change, I am learning to accept life with an open heart and to be content with everything and everyone God has put in or taken away from my life. And speaking of God, I realized that He is the one thing that is constant. The one thing that would never ever change or go away. You see, I have always thought of my family as my “home”. And I was wrong. It shouldn’t be people. It shouldn’t be anything within the worldly dimensions because everything here is so on the edge, and are bound to go away at some point. Everything is on a journey to reach an end except for The One That Has No Ending. No one else would be more reliable or able to provide the comfort and solace to the mind and to the heart with utmost guarantee. No one or nowhere should make you feel safer and more at home than God Himself. Therefore, we should always be reminded that no matter how alone or difficult we feel, we always have that safe space to go back to. Be in your little bubble with no one and nothing to be attached to but God.

Let’s stay sane together 😊